S.I.M.P.L.I.C.I.T.Y

Lately I have been inactive, as all of you could have expected at the first place. It’s not like my first, anyway.

Here’s the story behind my inactivity this time. And before that, my previous inactivities are mainly due to lack of things to say, basically because I have no idea on what to blog. This happens to me very, very often.

However, this time is in fact, due to my studies. It was Tuesday night when my parents were lecturing and questioning me about my expected performance for the coming Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia (STPM). While I have repetitively know the fact that I am very unprepared (and weak in several subjects), I tend to study after having such thoughts that I would fail the examination or whatsoever. However, the down side is, from that, I would only study for only a few, and then breaking that off to resume what I would do normally. Such things happened to me thousands and thousands of times already.

Computer and the Internet are such an addictive thing, that I can spend more than 10 hours per day on it. I started using the computer when I was very, very young. Say, when I was in Standard 2 or 3, if I am not mistaken. I was immediately drawn to the so-called fantastically-wonderful world of computer and the Internet. The habit of using the computer excessively has been a major part of my childhood as well as my teenage years. Not to mention, now too.

Though it was considerably too much and negative (in terms of the number of hours I use the computer), this is how I have learned so much about everything to do with Windows operating systems, repairing and recovering computers, and anything else technical about computers. I dare to say that being so faithful to computers has made me stand out among the crowds, because I know 99.99% of people I know are less advanced than me when it comes to computer. Of course, do not ever compare me to a programmer, software engineer or anyone else with a computer-related degree. My experiences are all from researching, looking through technical guides, blogs, forums, and more, all through the Internet.

I am not intending to show off or whatsoever, because I do notice that. I’m just trying to be honest here. Despite that, on the negative effect, my studies suffer drastically. I hardly study every day, while spending most of my time reading tech news. If you ask me, I actually do not play any game at all, not even online ones. Maybe except for a few of them, but still I only play very rarely. Anyway, that negative effect is still on me, due to my continuing habit of using the computer excessively.

Until this Tuesday, after being lectured so aggresively, I tend to be able to study. Not in a normal pattern where I study for a few days until the grudge subsides, instead I am beginning to develop the habit to study already. Today is the third consecutive day studying at night for several hours, and it is a good feeling. While I have to aggresively limit my time for computers, I guess I have no choice but to do that for the sake of the coming STPM public examination.

Now I tend to use the computer and surf the Internet after coming back from school, and then studying at night for several hours. I hope I can keep with that, unlike previous attempts of which I always resume my negative habit. And do wish me luck too, I still hope there is time for me to cope with my studies.

Chao! Time to bathe now, and then dinner and study.
Thanks for understanding, anyway.